Freddie Flintoff discusses crash aftermath, wishes he had died

Former England cricket captain Andrew 'Freddie' Flintoff has opened up in a new Disney+ documentary about the severe mental and physical aftermath of his 2022 Top Gear car crash, which left him with significant facial injuries and enduring trauma. Flintoff describes experiencing depression, PTSD, and moments when he thought, 'I wish I’d died,' though he clarifies this was not an intent to end his life but a reflection of his pain and struggle to recover. The documentary features graphic images of his injuries and candid reflections from Flintoff, his wife Rachael, and his surgeon, highlighting the emotional toll on his family, especially his young son who was frightened by his appearance. Flintoff recounts reliving the crash nightly and struggling with anxiety and flashbacks, but also details his gradual return to coaching cricket and television work, expressing cautious optimism about his future. He credits cricket with giving him renewed purpose and acknowledges he will never be the same, but is slowly adapting to his new reality. The film has been widely discussed for its raw depiction of trauma and resilience.